State Of Fear

It's been no secret that I've been feeling under the weather for weeks now. It's funny, I can usually pinpoint the exact moment of when it all started to go wrong, and this time around it was the second week of September when my mom passed away. I think trying to hold it all together might have done me in and for the last few weeks I've been having disease symptoms. Symptoms that can also be explained by other causes: a fall down the subway stairs, yoga after a year away, terrible shoes, all could be the reason for my joint pain. The cold that simply refuses to die could be the reason why my sinuses are so besieged at the moment. The exhaustion from a very busy life and the time change could be causing the sluggish, always-tired feelings that I wake up with every single morning. But I can't say that I'm not worried. I can't say that I'm not totally freaked out that in the few months I've been off the needle that the disease has reared its ugly head. I'm just trying not to totally panic and make it even worse. Cross your fingers for me.